break my heart for what breaks Yours

47 hours. Hurry, I need to get on with life.

Gets harder when you're dumb

A's give me a meaningless feeling.
We're just vapours, passing, fading.
7As, so what?
0As, so how?
Come to Jesus.
Le sighz.

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The key to the A is the case study.
So back to battle studies.

Firstly, they screwed Lit for us.
Secondly, I screwed Lit for myself.
Thirdly, I failed myself.

"exactly the man who, in disposition and talents, would most suit her.” “His understanding and temper … would have answered all her wishes”
I step into Elizabeth's shoes because of you!

"The greatest gift you give your wife
Is loving God above her life.
And thus I bid you now to bless:
Go love her more by loving less"

John Piper

:O

Take drugs man

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Really... I need to stop using expletives in my exam situations in the exam hall. Need to stop substituting superlatives with expletives when I memorize stuff. Need to start respecting the stuff I study and stop cursing. Need to stop cursing with lips that praise. Come on!

0 days left. Let us still live as though every day's our last, even though its the As now. 

The Disadvantages of an Elite Education

"The first disadvantage of an elite education ... is that it makes you incapable of talking to people who aren’t like you.
The first disadvantage of an elite education is how very much of the human it alienates you from. 
The second disadvantage ... is that an elite education inculcates a false sense of self-worth" (nodding my head right now).

"Getting to an elite college, being at an elite college, and going on from an elite college—all involve numerical rankings: SAT, GPA, GRE. You learn to think of yourself in terms of those numbers. They come to signify not only your fate, but your identity; not only your identity, but your value. It’s been said that what those tests really measure is your ability to take tests, but even if they measure something real, it is only a small slice of the real. The problem begins when students are encouraged to forget this truth, when academic excellence becomes excellence in some absolute sense, when “better at X” becomes simply “better. There is nothing wrong with taking pride in one’s intellect or knowledge. There is something wrong with the smugness and self-congratulation that elite schools connive at from the moment the fat envelopes come in the mail. From orientation to graduation, the message is implicit in every tone of voice and tilt of the head, every old-school tradition, every article in the student paper, every speech from the dean. The message is: You have arrived. Welcome to the club. (Deja Vu alert) And the corollary is equally clear: You deserve everything your presence here is going to enable you to get. When people say that students at elite schools have a strong sense of entitlement, they mean that those students think they deserve more than other people because their SAT scores are higher."

- Sounds like uh, my school. By the way, club fees are $300+. High five hommie.

"How can I be a schoolteacher—wouldn’t that be a waste of my expensive education? Wouldn’t I be squandering the opportunities my parents worked so hard to provide? What will my friends think? How will I face my classmates at our 20th reunion, when they’re all rich lawyers or important people in New York? And the question that lies behind all these: Isn’t it beneath me? So a whole universe of possibility closes, and you miss your true calling."

- Sounds like me. Please change.

"They are products of a system that rarely asked them to think about something bigger than the next assignment. The system forgot to teach them, along the way to the prestige admissions and the lucrative jobs, that the most important achievements can’t be measured by a letter or a number or a name. It forgot that the true purpose of education is to make minds, not careers."

"The world that produced John Kerry and George Bush is indeed giving us our next generation of leaders. The kid who’s loading up on AP courses junior year or editing three campus publications while double-majoring (haha sounds like the friends in school Uni Apps freaks), the kid whom everyone wants at their college or law school but no one wants in their classroom, the kid who doesn’t have a minute to breathe, let alone think, will soon be running a corporation or an institution or a government. She will have many achievements but little experience, great success but no vision. The disadvantage of an elite education is that it’s given us the elite we have, and the elite we’re going to have."

Conclusion: Finally, a logical argument against elitism...
Not the conventional, familiar and stereotypical "us against the world", "everyone else against elites" idea our society cushions on i.e. the anti-elitists create the elitists IMO hehe...

We hence need Faith + Brains if the Brains are God-given. If none are available, Faith will do.

Press on guys. 1 day to As. Come on danny phantom.

2 days. This is real. I can't believe it. 

Until the poets run out of rhymeeeeeeee
In other words......
Until I die

4 days left.
How many left to Judgment Day.
Referring to the real one.
Wake up.

7 DAYS LEFT, can't wait. So exciting, adrenaline rush, hyperactive now.
While we're studying for As... teens are having sex and losing their way lol welcome to America. Rise in social problems amidst recession.. Hmm. What am I doing here? I must be gone now. Drifted off my aim to read up and stay relevant with times.

Parting lyrics from Hillsongs, press on friends, text me if you need prayer.

This is my prayer in the desert
When all that's within me feels dry
This is my prayer in my hunger and need
My God is the God who provides

This is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flame

I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

This is my prayer in the battle
When triumph is still on it's way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand

I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship (x4)

I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here (x2)

This is my prayer in the harvest
When favour and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be emptied again
The seed I've received I will sow

Peace to you <3

 ^{Psalm 91:1} He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High
       will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.

 ^{Psalm 91:2} I will say of the LORD, "He is my refuge and my fortress,
       my God, in whom I trust."

A timely reminder by a powerful passage, of His perfect sovereignty in our lives. What an alluring invitation to trust in Him. Indeed...
7 remaining, hang in there friends, stop worrying and continue trusting. Just give your best and don't be a worry noob.

^{Matthew 6:27} Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?

This post is dedicated to Dawn Chik. Welcome!

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I'm going through a phase in life where I don't know what in the world I'm doing.
I studied Doctor Faustus, The Great Gatsby, am enjoying Shakespeare, loving Pride and Prejudice, <3 Donne and Herbert's divine poems really.
Learning how Economics is more relevant to our morals and beliefs rather than the superficial digits and diagrams..
Honestly, these are the things I treasure the most from the spectra of randomness I've learned.
So, while pursuing your A and telling me your life would be over without it, and that people judge you by your grades (obviously myopic homies), what in the world are you doing on this earth?

The mystery I'm surrounded in... Isn't it engulfing all of you too lollllll.

One of the most relevant and beautiful poems ever written: "Vanity - George Herbert"

"Poore man !  thou searchest round
To finde out death, but missest life at hand."

Jon Neo asked me for a verse today. Seek ye first.. Matthew 6 something, was all I could recall. Turned to the handphone bible, it was already in the search bar, so apt.

"But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you." Matthew 6:33

What are "all these things". I don't know, but the peace of God which transcends all understanding has been supporting me through the whole year, knowing that His plans for me are set, and that they are good in His eyes, will be realized in His time. Press on friends.

And you've always been there. So thankful for His blessings upon my undeserved soul, through you :)

Blessed birthday mom and bro. <3

Always praying for you.